3.11.2004
Where has the time gone? Why can't it be the way things used to be?
I'm really frusterated with life at the moment. Honestly, I have a really good life. Big house, great family, perfect place to live... Then why are things so much harder? Why am I crying myself to sleep?
Nothing can help me. No one can. No matter who, no matter how many times they tell me I'm good at something, I can't believe them. I can't do it.
It doesn't help at all when everyday, except saturdays and sundays, I am critisized and picked on about anything and everything.
Things are alot harder than before.
"People say that your teenage years are the best years of your life. They lie."
-Mum
Just leave me alone. I can't get on with my life when you are in my way.
But other than that, I have found the biggest reason for my distress. My biggest goal in life is to have fun. I want to soak up life for what it's worth. I want to take it all in. But people keep getting in my way. When I want ice skating with the youth the other night, I had the most fun I've had since...since....gosh, I don't even know the last time I had any fun. But it's not that I can't have fun, it's the people around me that can't just throw down the work or stiffness and MELLOW OUT!! I mean, COME ON! Just loosen up and have fun!! I really had fun that night. I really did. Why can't anyone else have fun?
I think I'm going to keep this KFC bowl.
MY BROTHER IS COMING HOME!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=Lee
Current Music: ALI PROJECT - Coppelia no Hitsugi - Noir
Currently eating/drinking: applesauce
Current Mood: was frusterated earlier, suddenly happy(because I got to talk to my brother!! YAAAAAAY!!!)
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.::. Lisa .::. 5:58 PM
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