7.30.2004
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.::. Lisa .::. 1:35 PM
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7.20.2004
Off we go to OffWeGo tomorrow. I'm all packed(I think) and ready for a fun week with Lord Conti, Eri, and Luca. YAY! We're supposed to alter some clothes and go to da thrift store! YAY! I hope I do okay there.... I've been having some touble lately. I think it's because I haven't been getting any sun. Lack of sun = depressing. Lots of it.
Well, check up on my art page. I've been keeping busy. I really need to get those links back up to it and other places. I have been putting that off. Bad me.
=Lee
Currents :: listening to Skillet - Forsaken, eating nothing....I'm starving ><, yearning to draw
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.::. Lisa .::. 10:09 PM
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7.18.2004
Man.... I just finished watching Full Moon(ep 06) and it actually made me cry. The little girl in the story acts tough to everyone but the stuffed kitty she finds and takes(who is actually real). The owner of the stuffed animal finds her and tries to get him back but the little girl refuses. Mitsuki(the owner) finds out that the girl is actually lonely. She claims that she doesn't have a home or parents but a little later Mitsuki finds out that the girl was lying so the girl takes her to where her parents are working in a grocery store.
"But....when you entered the store they didn't say anything at all, did they?"
"That's how it always is."
"Always?"
"Everyday,"
.....
"When you go home you'd say "I'm home," and they'd say "Welcome back," right? Because I....if I had a father and mother I would say "I'm home," and I'd want them to say "Welcome back"! And you say that you have parents. Why!?"
She tears up and starts to cry... "Because I also want to talk to my mother and father, and there are lots of things I want to say. But, they're always busy, so....I....I....
I miss my parents... I have things I want to tell them. What's wrong with me? I just feel like I'm not close to them anymore. I hate this. I don't know what I want. I don't know how to fix it.
-Lee
Currents :: watching Full Moon, chewing on gum, feeling lots of things.
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.::. Lisa .::. 10:49 PM
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7.14.2004
I've finally figured out what I want to do in life(job-wise). Comic books! It combines the two things I love to do most in life. Write and draw!
But....
Drawing is a whole heck of a lot harder than writing. To me anyway. Especially in comic form. I draw poses, not action. It's tough. I've tried many times to create a comic. Problem is the story turns out yucky because I'm afraid to do anytime complicated because I won't be able to draw it! I already have a story set up for a comic but.... *shakes head* I can't do it. I don't know anything about making comics. I've read them, sure. I have over 100$ worth of graphic novels on my shelf and Robotech comics(comic comics. not graphic novels).
I don't know what to do. I can't rely on artbooks my whole life. I can't get anywhere if I don't move on.... but I can't.
>>><<< why do I have to be so difficult!?
-Lee
current listenings :: (FLCL soundtrack)The Pillows - Bran-new lovesong
current eats :: --
current mood :: undecided
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.::. Lisa .::. 11:55 PM
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7.10.2004
duuuuuuude! commentness ...on! *flicks switch*
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.::. Lisa .::. 11:04 PM
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7.09.2004
I didn't want to leave. I felt like a real person there. No one important, just real.
7.03.04 The sun shines - Traveling Circus
We left around 5 for OffWeGo with Lord Conti(aka bro), Eri, and Luca. I was kind of nervous and even thought of turning back. But I sat in that seat and locked myself in with that belt. My hand was clutched around the door handle for most of the ride, but I still went.
We were stopped my the ...BORDER PATROL... (gotta say that fast and do the hand thing, ask me and I'll demonstrate) mostly because....we all looked....funk-ay. Luca was in the back with her curly hair all flipped to one side from the wind and she had on her blue blockers! That probably set things off a bunch. Eri had her head half out the window on her side because she was feeling sick(needed air) and her hair was scary too. Then pilot(Lord Conti) and co-pilot(me) were both suspiciously looking .... like we both had on blue shirts. That was kind of ... really funny. But the officer jerk was being and officer jerk. He deserved a kick.
Mah clothes and books. XD Then we stopped at dunkin' donuts and played DDR on the floor tiles while waiting for bagels.
So, we got to the appartment and played DDR for an hour or two and got some sleeps.
7.04.04 And they sing - Freedom
I went to church with Lord Conti that morning. I really did like how the preacher spoke. It was more like he was talking to us. It was on the Creation too, and I like that. The church mostly consisted of oldies though. Kind of smelled funny.
After church we played DDR for a while(yeah, we're obsessed, Luca now has Midnight Blaze and Orion burned into her mind XD) and then walked around town for a while, saw the parade. It was really cool. I'd never seen a marching band before. We left when the firetrucks started coming in a blowing their horns. I don't like that.
We went to a friend's house that night too and had a BBQ. It was lots of fun. We each had our own awesome cool animal plate. If I can get the pictures from Luca I'll post them. They're awesome. Once again, DDR. We left kind of early though because some stupids came over and started drinking. We didn't see much of the fireworks either. That's too bad....
7.05.04 The rain falls - Empty Hands
Sticks and Mon came up and them, Lord Conti and I walked to the lake to draw. We specifically had set aside this day for drawing. It was awful. I think Lord Conti intimidates me with his drawing. He can show me things and teach me, but I can't do it when he's around. Especially this time. I haven't been able to draw for two weeks. He was sitting right there. Right next to me. Watching. Trying to make me understand. I couldn't do it. I just sat there with tears in my eyes. Watching the goofy little boys throw popcorn in the lake, starring at the sidewalk. I just couldn't do it.
It seemed like forever, but we finally went back and later that night we went to the comic book store. It was a really cool store but I'm not that interested in comic books. Not the old ones anyway. I saw some comic issues of Ah! My Goddess but I didn't want to start a comic book series when I wouldn't ever return there anyway. They were back issues and expensive anyway. Saw some cool action figures and a graphic novel called "Shadow Star" It looks really good. It was #4 though so I didn't buy it. I'm looking into the series though. Need to work first.
Made pizza and bread sticks when we got back. Jorge came over and we played DDR....again!
7.06.04 Bright Days - The Mysteries
Did nothing but play Final Fantasy X all day with Luca spectating and trying to strategize and figure things out. That was fun though!!
7.07.04 Inner Warmth - Walking Elegance
Went shopping! That was fun stuff! Luca and Eri got me all dress up mostly all day and I even got some stupid cool pants! YAY! I got a coolie fan too. I should take pictures and post 'em. Yes, we played DDR in the arcade too. Heh heh. Sticks, Mon, and Lord Conti left early so we could run around more. Whee. On the way back we stopped and grabbed flowers off the side of the road. We're so bad. Sweet Peas they were. Sweet Peas.....
7.08.04 As it pours - Once Again
Another day of nothing but FFX and cooking at times. :]
7.09.04 The Lightened - Broken Endings
We went back to the mall that day because my mom and sister came up to bring me home. I got really depressed half through the day. I love my family, but I loved my "other" family too. I didn't want to leave. I didn't want to leave my friends behind. I wanted to stay with them forever. I want to go back. I want to live again. I miss them so much and I've only just gotten home. I'll see them next weekend...but....
Now that I'm home, I'm depressed again. Something is wrong with my mom. Midlife crisis or something. It pushed me down. I've seemed okay all day but I know that I'm not. It's not real. I've lost my smile. Home isn't happy anymore, and I don't know why... Home used to be safe. Now I feel alone.
=Lee
Current Music - A Christian Radio
Current Eats - hashbrown!
Current mood - depressed?
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.::. Lisa .::. 10:24 PM
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