8.31.2005
Wrapping her in a towel and feeling her weight in my arms could have not done any less twisting of my insides. There was so much pressure in my head it should have burst. She was so confused when I set her down in that chair. Tears kept creeping to my eyes, but it stung so bad that I had to bite my tongue. Closing the door behind me I knew that I had turned my back on the innocent.Rain is so strange. There’s something about the drops individually plinking on dry skin that makes your body explode with misery. It guides the rest of your tears in the direction of the ground. Everything pours with sour selfishness. It’s all enough to drive you mad. It has. I knew I should stay in the rain like I deserved. There was no reason why I should return to my shelter, but I did. That is the selfishness of myself.
1 comments
.::. Lisa .::. 6:29 PM
__________
8.24.2005
I'm just so angry!!I've generally been irritated all day today. I tried hiding out in my room but I was pestered anyway. After this post I'm trying again though.
Okay, Asher, you can stick around as long as you aren't a slob, okay? You've been doing well. I'm almost enjoying you. That sounds terrible, but I really am not content having him around this week.
But krumpy... I have some really bad issues with her. Like when she came home and wasn't arond more than 4 minutes and proclaimed that we aren't raising Luca well.
THEN RAISE HER YOURSELF!
So, I'm real irritated.
I'm also having a heck of a lot of drawing issues.
"You're not a good sneaker, pet." Haha, too cute. Thanks Asher.
There's not really anything else I want to say. I'm mad. I'm going to my room. I want to draw like a maniac awesomeness person(though, the person part doesn't matter.). I also just want to give up.
STOP HUMMING!!
I'm angry!!!
-lisa
0 comments
.::. Lisa .::. 7:36 PM
__________
8.23.2005
Doesn't seem like too much has been going on in the Wired while I've been breaking from it. Looks like a lot of the same ol' same ol'.Too much has been happening on smelling, popping Earth though. Things like bad dreams and aching backs. There's a money issue floating around in the area where I sleep that's been causing some lack of speech and stiff necks. Frankly, I think this business is serious, but I don't think people should be getting so worried about it. Then again, I'm not the one that sees or pays the bills, or works even. I just accept that something is happening, and we aren't going to die. But it also seems like some people don't understand that when we say "We don't have ANY money." it really means that we don't have ANY money. We're still getting replies saying "Let's go splurge shopping." The human mind is definately a weak one.
Groceries today. That's good. Last another three months. Yeah, I think we've gotten three batches this summer. Other than money, some of us are having mental issues.
Whoah, suddenly I have 1,000 views on my dA page. I'll have to make something for thanks. It's a conformity thing.
Asher and Krusty came home the other night, and I've felt a little less of awkward. Krusty has learned more Mother abilities while she's been away, but also more child traits. Like pickage. Like saying I'm fat(child traits) or telling me to eat something like peas or a weird peanut chicken thing(mother traits).
Needless to say, I don't like it. I already have one mother, and she takes care of my just fine. Also, I've never had a younger sibling, only older ones and they've always been kind to me. So why are you going back in time and pestering me like a child?
That's my complaints. But I'm glad your home. I like playing that game with you. We're neighbors and we write to each other. After I pay off my debt, I'll help you with yours.
As for boy, I don't know what to say. He keeps wanting my help, but I don't know what to do. I've always had a hard time asking him for things and talking about stuff. I still do, and it's shameful.
Privacy is something I'm not getting. That's what keeps me alive, you know.
We've decided that Taylor is going to play as Xing Cai. This means we'll really have to get DW5. For more info on this, please refer back to the first topic. But I think I'll be gaming content for a while. Beat FFX-2 and almost got Grandia down. Then FFVII comes next, Xenogears(cause for the many years we've had it, we could never get by the end) and Asher brought all of his stuff home.
Oh, side note before I continue with cosplay chat, Asher has a lot of junk. Yeah, something that's making a lot of people nervous. Who cares? He's sticking it all in the playhouse and no one ever even looks in there anymore. He could stick it all in my room for all I care. And his artwork? What are you talking about? We have enough house to hang it up everywhere. Start sticking 'em on the ceiling for cryin' out loud. Besides, he's cleaning. He's sorting. And he's thinking of EVERYONE while he does it. He really cares. Found a light and he thought dad would like it so he's welding it to his workbench. Taking a break from oodles of work to care for someone. Why are you nervous then? Also, it's all his stuff, so I'd think he'd probably take it back once he gets a place. So what's the problem? He can't put it anywhere else, so why complain? We don't have other options. Yeah, he has a lot of stuff. Well, when you live in a house for two or three years, you want to make living better so you grab a couple things for yourself, and other people are always passing on their junk to you too. So really, I don't think this could entirly be avoided. I don't think he really WANTED to cause this problem. Do you?
And my hot chocolate tastes like soap. And something reaks like feet in here. Barf.
So, cosplay. I almost have my shorts done, but I don't be able to work on them for probably the rest of the week. For one thing, I'm feeling gross and achy(and we all know what that means) and like I said before, NO PRIVACY. I gotta be helping out everywhere and entertaining.
But that's all I have done. I want this project finished for halloween again. The other three need to come over with THEIR OWN MATERIAL(that's a must. Did I mention we don't have any money?) and we can batch make 'em. Get the other to cut and handsew the details while I machine sew the bases. Doesn't sound so bad to me.
Here's drawing/oekakis of our characters.
Here is Da Qiao, Sam's character. Pronounced Da Chi-ow. Age 17, height 5'3"Her alligence is with the Wu dynasty along with her sister, Xiao Qiao and husband, Sun Ce. She and her sister were called "The Two Qiaos", famed for their beauty.
"So beautiful are they that birds alight and fishes drown, the moon hides her face and the flowers blush for shame at sight of them."
Cao Cao, ruler of Wei had heard of them, and being friends with their father planned on marrying them. However, Sun Ce and Zhou Yu married the two sisters before Cao Cao could claim them. Da means "big", refering to the fact that she is the big sister of Xiao Qiao.
Xiao Qiao is my character. Pronounced Se-yow Chi-ow. Age 16, height 5'3"Her alligence is with the Wu dynasty along with her sister, Da Qiao and husband, Zhou Yu. She and her sister were called "The Two Qiaos", famed for their beauty.
"So beautiful are they that birds alight and fishes drown, the moon hides her face and the flowers blush for shame at sight of them."
Cao Cao greatly desired to possess the Two Qiaos. His son Cao Zhi wrote a poem about the Bronze Bird Terrace which contained the most beautiful women Cao Cao could collect. The poem contained a reference to the Two Qiaos. When Zhuge Liang recited this poem to Zhou Yu it provoked him into attacking Cao Cao. Xiao means "little", refering to the fact that she is the little sister of Da Qiao.
Xing Cai, Taylor's character. Pronounced S-ying Sai. Age 19, height 5'5"
She allies with the Shu Dynasty along side her father Zhang Fei.
After the death of her father-in-law, Lui Bei, his son Liu Chan was crowned Emperor of Shu; Zhuge Liang and the rest of the court suggested that he take Zhang Fei's daughter as his wife, as she was known to be prudent and virtuous. At age 17 she was married and became Empress of Shu.
Little more is known.
Her alligence belongs to Wu where her husband Lui Bei who was the ruler and distant relative of the Emperor. However, she was only one of the four wives he had, but she loved him dearly.
She was the daughter of Sun Jian and the sister of Sun Ce, making her the sister-in-law to Da Xiao. When Liu Bei's first wife died, Zhou Yu devised a plan to get Jingzhou from Shu. Under the pretense of joining the Sun and Liu families, Sun Quan offered his sister Sun Shang Xiang as a wife to Liu Bei, who accepted. Zhou Yu's plan was to lure Liu Bei into Wu territory and keep him there, asking for Jingzhou as ransom. Zhuge Liang, Lui Bei's advisor, however, saw through the plot early on and prevented it from turning into a disaster for Shu. Liu Bei escaped through the influence of his wife, whose spirited scolding shamed the Wu guards into letting them pass through.
She was used again in another plot concerning Jingzhou, but again it did not sucseed. After this Sun Shang Xiang remained in Wu and never saw Liu Bei again, though she continued to love him. When she heard of his demise at Yi Ling, she cast herself into a river and died.
Sun Shang Xiang was described as "a tough lady", "always delighted to look upon war and is very fierce and determined." Though historically she never fought in any battles, her rooms were decorated with weapons and her handmaidens could fence.
Most of this information came from www.yueying.net which came from novel notes she has taken. However, I did end up changing a few things, but this is still accurate, however, the ages and heights are based on the time in game. The lives these women and their relatives lead were rather sad. More of them died of personal causes instead of in battle. Such as Liu Bei, who died of sickness and depression, and Sun Shang Xiang who commited harikari. Truely sad indeed.
I'd like to get the novels someday and read them. I find them so interesting.
That'll be all for now. My headache is attacking me so I think I will hide in my room for a while and hope no one calls for me.
-Lisa
0 comments
.::. Lisa .::. 1:01 PM
__________
8.10.2005
Luca was super cute today. She discovered the joy of popsicles and her toung turned green.
She also went swimming but swallowed a lot of water which made her feel yucky, so she napped for a long time.
So, the other day somethings happened. Yeah, that's all.
I was planning on slobbing around in my room for the rest of the week because I was mad and grossed so I was going to sneak food in at night and beat Grandia and FFVII so I could entertain myself. But I ended up getting summoned out of my room by the parental unit. Which stunk. It made me feel better butI wanted to be mad all week. Ruined my plan.
I was just being a brat because my dad wouldn't make up his mind about me going with the A&E until the last minute when he said he really really didn't want me to go but I could if i wanted to. What was I supposed to say to that? So to make a long story short, I didn't go, cried in front of asher and erika and made a mess of myself. I had also canceled my plans for this week so it's already almost thursday and i've done nothing like always.
So, goodbye Erika. I will see you next year.
I had tons to say in this post earlier, but I don't anymore. Goodbye Smurfly.
-lisa
0 comments
.::. Lisa .::. 5:44 PM
__________
8.03.2005
I've felt pretty good all day up until I got home. I like home the best of anything, so why have i suddenly felt like garabge?Let's see, what happened today first.
Morning went well. Must have because I don't remember it. I was sleeping for most of it. Colette came over and gave me like a zillion ties!! They are so awesome! I love them all! I need to make that tie skirt. I think I might have enough now. I hope it's turns out nice.
Well, maybe not a zillion. More like 11 and two bows. And four awesome plate things.
Are these not awesome? No, they are not. They are too awesome. Too awesome for you. And me. And Shmee. Poor guy.
Mary-Lou and Julie came up too. They're neat to have around. Funny people. I wish they came up more often. Julie took me to Joe's, where I was going to participate in the LANage action. Whelp, James left in the morning, and when I got there Jared looked like he was going to throw up(I 3/4 panicked). So it was just me and Joe, which I thought was a little weird, but it was still fun even though the compys decided to mostly die.
Badmitten, explosives, balloons! and chess. Yeah, I lost.
I went to Shannon and Amanda's around 4.40? something like that. I've missed them. I felt bad about not saying bye tonight. Oh wait, we haven't gotten to the feeling bad part yet. You didn't read that. I ate supper with them. Meatloaf, veggies, and taters. It was good. But I didn't really like most of it. I like their family. You don't have to worry about pleasing people. So when I didn't want the squash, it wasn't offensive.
I enjoy going there and talking to them. I usually like people to come to my house, rather than going to their's, but to talk to them, I like being with what they know as home.
I forgot what we talked about.
We went to the C. Center together to learn that Sam wasn't there, was having a rough time at home, Bentley was cranky, Amanda wasn't feeling the greatest about something, and there wasn't any DDR that night.
Everyone always seems so happy on this side of the sun.
I ate Taylor's donuts. Oh yeah, I left home this afternoon with my bag and camera and came home with those, two games, a movie, and two drinks. Whoa. Why doesn't that happen more often?
I'm home now and feeling weird.
Here's what I feel bad about(already spilled it on mom, I hope I can remember what I said.)
I feel bad because Sam is feeling down
I feel bad because Bentley is feeling down
I feel bad because Amanda is feeling down
I feel bad because Shannon was feeling down about how people saw her hyper, younger sister
I feel bad because Asher and Erika are down, together.
I feel bad because Jared is feeling sick
I feel bad because Joe is feeling sick
I feel bad because I won't be able to go to the DDR competition
I feel bad because I won't see Erika before she leaves.... FOR A YEAR
I feel bad because I won't be able to go to Oswego this year
I feel bad because I'll probably never be able to see Emily again
I feel bad because I probably wont be able to play with same on RO anymore
I feel bad because I want cereal and I can't have any dairy
I feel bad because I'm gaiing weight
I feel bad because I want to sew, but I can't
I feel bad because I want to spend money on clothes, video games, and lots of anime
I feel bad because next week's DDR party probably won't happen
I feel bad because I don't want to go to the dentist tomorrow
I feel bad because I generally don't feel good in my mental compartment
I feel bad because 13 year olds can draw better than me
I feel bad because school is coming....
I feel bad because I want to see sam and b'n't but i know i can't
I feel bad because I'm complaining a lot.
I feel bad because I want to keep whining but I'm tired of it.
That's all.
-Lisa
1 comments
.::. Lisa .::. 9:20 PM
__________