11.27.2003

Yeah it's Thanksgiving. I'm going to go out and help my mom with stuff soon. I'm not really excited about it today. I've never really ever been but....I just want to go back to bed. We have tons of people coming over today. It seems like Thanksgiving happened so fast this year. I mean, we usually have another week before having to think about it!! I was so confused when I saw my mom making a turkey last night. I didn't think it was going to be TODAY.

Oh yeah. And as I said in my last entry I don't have a lot of brain power.....I haven't recently. I spent a whole day with my mom yesterday in the car and I had so many things to tell her. But I couldn't think of anything to say. I had the thoughts I my mind but I couldn't say them. At all. It was so hard to even stay thinking.

I think I'm tired.

Again.

Well, I might write more later but most likely not until late tonight. But for now I have to go work.........some more........again......gaah.



=Lee


Current Music: nothing

Currently eating/drinking: nothing

Current Mood: avery tired

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 10:01 AM
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11.24.2003

THANKSGIVING IS COMING!!! YAY!!!

wait.....thanksgiving.........kids......thanksgiving + kids = total chaos

Oh dear
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That line there is there.....to be a line. SO THERE

You may have noticed the new link I put up on the left bar thingy over there. Yes, I'm going to dedicate my artwork and everything else related to art on that page. I started that page a long time ago but was too lazy to do anything with it so left it. But just recently (like 30 minutes ago) I descovered my friend's blog that.....I had never seen before. I feel awfully guilty about it too because there were notes in there for me. The one who is supposed to be so dedicated and....well, let's just say my concience is hurting. Or something. Well, in her blog was a link to my 240 day old page that I posted in...once. SO!! I'm going to do something with it. YAY!! You can all dance aroind now. Yes....you....now....I don't see you dancing yet!!! >.>

I guess I've been feeling okay lately. Still so tired that my eyes hurt all the time but....I guess I'll just have to get used to that. But other then that and the strong feeling of wanted to push Joey off a cliff (yes that is his real name and now you can all go stalk him) I've been good. But tonight I guess I felt a feeling of denial. Like....no one cares. Here is a little thing I wrote in one of the forums I go to...



People don't understand me.....

No one does. Well.....except my mom. Cause she's awsome. And I hate the thought of going to college (3 years away ) because then I'll have NO ONE that understands me AT ALL. My best friends doesn't even fully understand me!!

I love my mom!!

But seriously...the things I do....why I do them. My reasoning.....my likings.....I know other people have different persprectives but it seems that know one ever understands me....the way I want it. They way I make it. The way I put it.

*sigh* It's sad....I have a hard time understanding myself so how can I ask for others to? I know there are other people out there that aren't understandable....but....

gosh i just confused myself. What I was trying to say is I have weird interests and no one ever seems to respect them. Even if they try it's almost always a lie. Or partial. Or ..... they just don't care.


=kami



I know that wasn't too clear but I don't have a lot of brain power at the moment and I must hurry to bed. I might be able to explain in more detail later so...in the meantime....REMIND ME!!


XD Have a great day!


=Lee


Current Music: nothing

Currently eating/drinking: meaty something.....ham? Maybe?

Current Mood: a little draggy

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 9:33 PM
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11.19.2003

Lee here. I'm in my computer class at the moment. We have a sub....again....so I can't start on the next unit. I don't know what to do! So, instead of being a bum (like I am) I decided to come and update my blog. Yes, that way I will have more time to do my homework tonight. Right....

Well, stuff has been happening. Nothing too interesting. There's not really much to say....>.>

I'm really hungry. I've been hungry alot lately. Hm....

Well, that was exciting.

UponThouFairCat still hasn't responded. I don't know if she will. I really would like her to because I want that picture to come out but....I need some help! Maybe I can just ask my brother when he gets home for Thanksgiving. But it seems hard to ask him for help O.o I don't really know why. Maybe I'm scared of being wrong....?

I guess I'm going to go find something else to do now. I suppose if there's free time to do stuff I might as well be doing something "constructive"!! XD

I've been telling people to do something constructive lately. I'm turning into my brother!! XDD


=Lee


Current Music: nothing

Currently eating/drinking: nothing

Current Mood: a little draggy

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 12:06 PM
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11.14.2003

I think I'm better now. It's been a while since I screwed up real bad like the other night so I guess I freaked out. I think things are almost not but okay now.

I'm still waiting for UponThouFairCat to respond to my post. A while ago I mentioned that some people were critiquing my art work and it really bothered me....(and it still does) but now I'm staying on the site for hours waiting for the response on my work. I want to know what to do next. I want to learn.

Whoa.....that's weird. Me? WAITING for advice? Maybe this IS a good idea.....

I'm still kinda worried about putting in my other works though. I know what's wrong with them....so it's definatly obvious to them. Scares me on what they might say.....


Well, I'm off to go do nothing now. I was drawing for a while but got too tired. I know! I'll go build that thing! Yea! That Metal Gear Solid tank thing my brother sent me! XDD


=Lee


Current Music: Gundam Wing Something - Last Impression

Currently eating/drinking: nothing

Current Mood: TIRED/uhh....really tired? hm.....AH! I know, CONFUSED!!! XDD

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 6:23 PM
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11.12.2003

Got back from shopping. Got some stuff. Really not in the mood to write but I am writting. I'm just so mad....

People don't understand that I'm not "preaching" to them. I made a suggestion to people. THATS ALL. A SUGGESTION. I even said if they didn't like it the could just delete it.

But then of course, stupid me has to go and post this thread about SPAM THREE TIMES. An error came up saying it couldn't be sent so stupid me believes that it wasn't sent and tries again and OH! Loook at that! ANOTHER ERROR! So what does stupid me do? Try again of course! And I go back and look at the boards and I get these smart remarks on Oh look! Isn't it ironic that you spam the boards while telling us not to spam?! AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! YES I AM MAD NOW!!

>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<


=Lee


Current Music: Komm, Susser Tod - The End of Evangelion

Currently eating/drinking: nothing

Current Mood: very mad at myself and others

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 5:44 PM
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11.09.2003

I'm pretty tired now. I stayed up late last night RPing with cysse. We watched three movies yesterday......

Tokyo Raiders
Muppets Treasure Island (XD)
Cinderella (Korean type version)

We fast-forwarded through most of Winnie the Pooh (was on the same tape) and we discussed that fact that the guy that wrote the Winnie the Pooh stories got tired of writing them and was going to have Christopher Robin go in and kill them so he wouldn't have to write about them anymore.

Also, we talked about how we suspect Pigglet to be a major mass murderer and most likely is teamed up with Tiger(the assassin) and Eeyore(technician). They're secret base is probably below Eeyore's hut thing and we're guessing they're going to kill CR first (cause he's annoying) and then go straight to Rabbit's house.

Beware...Pigglet and his partners in assassination will be coming to a city near you in december of 2004. ..... Or so we think. Who knows it could be sooner.

Paranoid now, aren't ya?

You should be.

I am.


*cough* Ahem.... Anyway. Tonight at the youth group thing we watched Spirited Away!! XD It was great because I had expected these kids (ages like 11-13?) to think it was messed up (like everyone else) and just spit criticism at it. But they actually liked it!! THAT MAKES ME SO HAPPY!! XDDDDD

Probably because the psycho one wasn't there....I would have sat on him.

Well, off to tomorrow to go shopping for......*gag* two days. Hey, I like getting new stuff and all but I'm NOT a good shopper. 30 minutes after being in a store it's like, isn't it time to go home yet? Geez....my feet are gonna hurt. So is my head.

Better rest up. Long two days are coming.

Aw crud. Gotta finish my homework too. >.> Lot's of homework



=Lee



Current Music:

Currently eating/drinking:

Current Mood: very tired

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 11:11 PM
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11.07.2003

Stupid...peice of poo....bandwidth.

Sheesh

I've exeeded my bandwidth limit so it's shut down for today. In other words, all my pictures can't be seen for a while. *signs up for new account* There....now I can continue with my work.

Ahem.....I'm having some problems with my artwork at the moment.

Isn't beefy enough. Don't really want to talk about it right now. I'm too tired. Maybe later.



=Lee


Current Music:

Currently eating/drinking:

Current Mood: very tired/irritated

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 11:07 PM
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At the moment I'm trying out some new things with this blog thinger so things will be a bit messy ^^; But fear not! Someday I'll have it cleaned back up XD

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 4:16 PM
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11.06.2003

YAY!! I got a guestbook! Everyone please go sign it XD

Yeah, yeah. I've been sick with the flu for the past couple days. Been home, being a bum. I've been drawing a lot. I'm just too lazy to host and post 'em at the moment. Ask me for 'em sometime and I might stop being laxy (for a minute anyway).

I think staying home these couple of days has been good for me though. I got to take a nap today ^^ Man, I feel not so tired now. XP Plus, I think getting away from people for a while has helped my esteem...or whatever you call it.

Cysse is coming over tomorrow...I have to catch up on my homework. Sunday night, movie night. Going to watch Spirited Away with the rest of the youth group. IF YOU LIVE AROUND HERE COME!! XD It'll be at the mission house next to the church after worship! We'll have food and junk too! Please come!! XP If you need a ride ASK ME! I'm sure I can find someone to give you a ride ^_^ (hehehe)

Monday going away to till Tuesday to go shopping. Yay! Can't wait to get all you weird people presents! XP

Think I'm going to go finish putting up stuff and junk! TTYL!


=Lee


Current Music: no idea cause the playlist isn't coming up. Something from Gamer Girl Radio (check it out! go to live365.com and get an account to listen to you're favorite music!! XP)

Currently eating/drinking: oreos and yogurt (seems thats all i ever eat anymore ^^;)

Current Mood: almost not tired/ukky

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 4:05 PM
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11.03.2003

I wonder what love is like.......Have I felt it before? I think so. But only a tingle in my heart for a moment that lasts forever. I wish I could tell you how I feel. But, I know that would just make us both uncomfortable and things wouldn't be the way they used to be. I wonder if you know how I feel?

It kills me to write this because if you ever find this and read it you will know I'm talking about you. But, I have to write it. I can't keep these feelings hidden inside of me. But...if you do ever read this, please spare me the pain and don't tell me. I know we could never be together. It's this whole distance thing. Heck, I barely know you. But......

I can't dance. I only ever learned this one from a friend.

But I promise I'll practice. After all, I promised you a dance, didn't I.

But then again, I'd probably be too short for you :)



=Lee


Current Music: none

Currently eating/drinking: nothing

Current Mood: teary/broken by my own fantasies(?)

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 10:27 PM
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HEEEEEY!!! SPAM WAS IN SCHOOL TODAY!! XDI think I'm in a good mood! That is...until I'm not. Which could happen at any minute....which wouldn't be a good thing. Cause I'm not in good moods a lot. So, maybe I'll soak up all my good moodness now, or go protect it.

Gotta think about it.


=Lee


Current Music: FFVII - City of the Ancients

Currently eating/drinking: oreos!!

Current Mood: kinda tired (duh)/almost happy/wired?

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 4:27 PM
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11.02.2003

Man....I haven't had a good few days. My dad is.....aggitated. And he's taking it out on me. Everything I do is wrong and I "shouldn't do this", and I"need to do this". It's really making me mad.

Plus, I have to study for this stupid history test on China. Everyone else might think history is so easy but I don't think anything that has to do with school is easy. I don't understand it! I just want to hide in my cave till .... forever is done. Someone send me food and books.

Geez, I'm sick of being lectured and I'm sick of having to study.

Well, I have nothing else to say. I'm done complaining at you.




Oh yeah, here's a picture I drew of me and Alost.





=Lee


Current Music: that odd song offa FFX-2

Currently eating/drinking: oreo

Current Mood: tired/irritated

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 7:03 PM
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