2.14.2006

So, today is Valentine's Day? I'd forgotten. I really wasn't ready for today! I like V-day too...

I always miss all the online holiday events so I wanted to draw something related to one, you know, like most people. They sort of dedicate their art to the spirit of the day. Christmas is usually where you get the most because there's always a big build-up to the one day.

There are so many good drawings out there for today... but I forgot to make mine. Waah.

So, here, you can have this. It's only a sketch, and it really wasn't for Valentine's either... but I was going to post it here anyway :P


http://www.deviantart.com/view/29086148/

Guh, I feel like such a geek showing off sloppy sketches of kissy-s.


Oh yeah. Felt terrible this morning and yesterday so I miss the food update again. I can't remember what I ate either. That would have been importance. Nothing out of the ordinary though I don't think.

Let's see, I know today's ranks though.

Morning - Kix w/ lactose free milk
Lunch - chocolate milk(L free), bologna
Evening - white rice with olivio butter, quakers cereal, saltine crackers with olivia

Today was rough...

I wish Valentine's was next week. I miss today. I wasn't ready. I feel bad about going to bed because then it won't be today anymore and tomorrow will be all regular wensday again. Sob.

But there is a super sale at Jo-Ann's tomorrow! ^~


-Lisa

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2.12.2006

I was feeling really sick yesterday, so I didn't even think about writing. The dizziness, weakness, being nauseous... Again, it's late, I have homework, and I'm tired. So just food updates tonight. I know it must be a real drag reading what I'm eating everyday.

Yesterday I can't quite remember what time or order, and I'm probably forgetting something, but it was mostly the usual, bologna, granola bar, cereal... Oh, I had some almonds and strawberries too. I with that the smellies companies could really make the lotions and perfumes smell like strawberries. The artificial stuff is musty and globby. The real strawberry smell is so sweet... I just picked one up and smelled sweet all day. That's all I can think of when I open the fridge. Maybe I'll eat a strawberry in the morning to smell good. Oh, I hope they don't spoil soon. :P

What do blueberries smell like?

Oh, I drew Asuka today. That poor girl... everyone seems to hate her. She has such a horrible past and holds onto deep wounds. I feel sorry for her, and I'm glad that she can take care of herself.

But I drew her being surprised by a kiss given to her by a boy. She flirts around a lot and is convinced that Koji(who is much too old for her) is her guy. The boy is sort of a mild rebel type. Long ponytail and collar. Someone who isn't like the rest of the crowd of boys who can't keep their eyes off her. No, this guy can hold up against her scornful outburst and can fight back. But he doesn't like her for her looks. He likes her for her willpower and can see through the mask she holds. He understands her.

Hah, I sound so sappy. I just really feel sorry for her, even if she is fictional.


Morning - quakers corny squares, granola bar, kellogs bar
Afternoon - almonds, spagetti-o's, ummm.... cereal again? The Kix?
Evening - Toast with jam, some of those peanut butter crackers


By the way, I had an awful headache this morning, and my cat looks like a squirrel. We could put horns on her and call her Gwin. That is such a good book. Thanks Mum!


-Lisa

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2.10.2006

Joe looked quite the awful sickly today. Said he hadn't had his corn flakes this morning. Me too.

"You couldn't understand me, but I was speaking technology. Technology means magic."

I think I'm getting a little dizzy tonight. Or maybe not. I can't quite tell. But if I can't tell, I probably am.

I'm working on a secret(solo) project. Bwah ha ha.

Oh yeah, tomorrow is the 11th. In my agenda I put an X on that date but I don't remember why it was special. But I do remember that I wasn't going to write down why, that I'd just eventually remember. So, someone help me rememeber.

Tip Tappers please.


Morning - Kellogs strawberry bar
Afternoon - bologna on white bread, granola bar, ('bout 5) small fishy sticks - seaqueen
Evening - Kix!

Worst mayonnaise party... ever!


-Lisa

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 8:38 PM
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2.09.2006

Oh good, it's only 9.30. But I have lots of work to do still so this is just a food update. Sorry kids. I know you're bored.

Morning - Kix w/ lactose free milk
Afternoon - balogna on italian bread and chocolate chip granola bar, some cantloupe, keloggs stawberry bar(experimental)
Evening - plain chicken, brown rice, quaker corn square cereal

gosh, makes me sound like a cow. Moo!


-Lisa

0 comments .::. Lisa .::. 9:33 PM
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2.08.2006

I went grocery shopping alone today. It was neat, but a little lonely. I didn't know what line to go through! There were ones saying 15 item of less... and others saying you're only allowed if you and over the age of 20 have have at least three jars of bacon bits in you pockets... It was stressful! I tried calling mom but it was busy. So I just picked a random one and ran through!

Frankie was at the end of it bagging things and asked me if I was in college ^^ Usually people ask me why I'm all alone or just give me long, forboding looks.

He asked me a couple strange questions like if I was going to his dad's church service tonight or on sunday. Maybe... he thinks I don't go to my own church?

Well, he's a silly guy, but not overratedly and obnoxiously silly. More like.. he doesn't know what's going on silly. Teehee.

So anyway, I have tons and tons of work to do so here's what I've eaten so far.

Morning - That oaty cereal... like cheerios.
Afternoon - bologna sammich, about half a dozen almonds, 1 strawberry, quacker crunchy square cereal
Evening -

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2.07.2006

I am thoroughly distraught today.

I kept plugging my ears so I wouldn't hear mom being sick. But as for my stomach, I was feeling better than usual. Too ill to eat, but mostly because I was depressed.. sorta.

Oh, did I mention my 7 year old cat peed all over my clothes last night at 4 am? Hmm...

I'm mostly frustrated about the dance project. When I talked to "Danielle" today she seemed to just disregard my replacement suggestion completely and then go on to pick out random names of people we spend some of our time with but failed to realize that this requires certain traits. The person she mentioned would have absolutely no interest in this project, which would later lead to misunderstandings and little determination.

She also mentioned to "allow" the original to re-enter the group and retake her position as back-up A, Yuko. However, this is an utterly rediculous statement due to the fact that she was dismissed(secretly also) because she could not take her responsibilites seriously and practically refused to work with us. Also, I think it would create unneeded and unwanted tension and countless problems, seeing as how neither of the originals have been officially contacted about their dismissal(since they didn't ask questions, we let it be) and it would strike the other member, that who's place has been taken, odd, rude, something. Again, it would just create more unwanted stress on my part.

Quite frankly, I feel like I am the only sane one left. Danielle's speech today gave me the impression that she was only working out of selfish reasons and countless grudges against the ex-member Yuko.

I think that the Danielle member is not taking this seriously and not considering realistic options. She also is not understanding the stress that has been placed on my by the tons and does not seem to mind that I am quitting by the 17th if no one makes an effort.

I personally think that this deadline should give us a huge kick in the pants to get us moving so we won't have to close down. However, it seems I am the last one that still holds the real feelings for this project.

Unfortunatly, it seems that Akagumi 4 will never be and neither will the following projects which I was already looking into, seeing as how I am the only member left that understands and cares about her work.

There are only tens days left for the other members and potential members to put their heads on straight and figure out their reasons for being a part of this. Ten days to decide my future.





This is an excerpt from an unofficial Gauntlet Legends guide site. Holy smokes, does this ever irritate me. How can anyone dedicate a site to a game and say so little about it?

21/3/2002 Well im goin 2 b takin down this site soon as i think no 1 plays this game much anymore since its quite old now. So say goodbye 2 this site!

10/5/2001 I'm going to stop updating this site as I have no time for Gauntlet Legends anymore. Sorry peeps. I don't touch the game anymore and I have to study for my last year of skool so this will be the last time u'll here from me. I also won't be replying to emails either so plz don't send me them. Thanx 4 vistiting this site! cya people!

16/12/2000 Sorry for not updating in a long time. As I have my last year of school I won't have much time to use the internet, play games and Gauntlet Legends is kind of an old game now so I won't be updating this site much now. Maybe only in the holidays or if I have free time. Also please don't send me so many emails as I have hardly any time to reply now. If you do send an email though please include sumthin to do with Gauntlet Legends in the subject box. Thanx!

27/7/2000 Well I've been grounded for a month and I'm not allowed to touch my computer so I think the updates will be on hold until I can get on again. Also I've got my yearly exams coming up so I've got to study for them.

It seems as though I am going to have to try to write here everday for the next three weeks(though I doubt I will make it that far). I have to keep track of what I eat each day so here goes for today:

Morning(apprx. 3am-11am) - none
Afternoon(apprx. 12pm-4pm) - Plain chicken, plain hamburger w/ white bread
Evening(apprx. 5pm-2am) - none(if anything, I might have some ritz crackers)


Maybe tomorrow I won't complain so much.

I'll tell you about Emily's postcards :P


-Lisa

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2.06.2006

What a rotten day.

Mom cried most of this morning. And me? I still feel lousy from the other night. I keep poisoning myself with food. Apparently, not only does milk kill, but so does MSGs. Yeah. Meaning I'm not allowed to eat anything anymore. I can have(washed) lettuce and apples(peeled).

I think I'm beginning to hate myself.

Basically, I'm feeling constantly dizzy, nauseous, weak, nervous, and feverish. All besides my stomach either hurting or feeling prickly. Everyday. Especially at night and in the morning. I'm just really depressed now and not wanting to cry, but crying anyway.

Mom's feeling the same way. Hopeless I guess.

I can't decide if I'm angry or irritated or depressed. All I suppose. At least I can mostly cover it up in public. People think I'm a weakling already.

Exercise will cure you! - No it won't. I exercise every night unless I'm too sick to stand.

I need a six month vacation where I can get sunshine and time to figure out what I can eat and what I've been banished from.

So besides feeling sick all the time, why else was your day rotten?

Well, remember those many weeks of stress from figuring out what to do with Akagumi 4? We'd finally replaced the two members with two others and it looked like we were finally going to get out butts moving. Nope. I want to give up now. She said she could do it. So now we're Akagumi 3. Again.

I can't even begin considering a third replacement. I have absolutely no other option in my mind. The sale at Jo-Ann's ends the 17th. I was planning on getting costume supplies during that time, so if there is no replacement by then, I am calling it off. I will burn my lyrics and practice CDs and papers and never think about a group project ever again.

There. How's that for being dramatic?


Look folks, it's the year of the dog.
http://www.deviantart.com/view/28575772/

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