7.09.2004
I didn't want to leave. I felt like a real person there. No one important, just real.7.03.04 The sun shines - Traveling Circus
We left around 5 for OffWeGo with Lord Conti(aka bro), Eri, and Luca. I was kind of nervous and even thought of turning back. But I sat in that seat and locked myself in with that belt. My hand was clutched around the door handle for most of the ride, but I still went.
We were stopped my the ...BORDER PATROL... (gotta say that fast and do the hand thing, ask me and I'll demonstrate) mostly because....we all looked....funk-ay. Luca was in the back with her curly hair all flipped to one side from the wind and she had on her blue blockers! That probably set things off a bunch. Eri had her head half out the window on her side because she was feeling sick(needed air) and her hair was scary too. Then pilot(Lord Conti) and co-pilot(me) were both suspiciously looking .... like we both had on blue shirts. That was kind of ... really funny. But the officer jerk was being and officer jerk. He deserved a kick.
Mah clothes and books. XD Then we stopped at dunkin' donuts and played DDR on the floor tiles while waiting for bagels.
So, we got to the appartment and played DDR for an hour or two and got some sleeps.
7.04.04 And they sing - Freedom
I went to church with Lord Conti that morning. I really did like how the preacher spoke. It was more like he was talking to us. It was on the Creation too, and I like that. The church mostly consisted of oldies though. Kind of smelled funny.
After church we played DDR for a while(yeah, we're obsessed, Luca now has Midnight Blaze and Orion burned into her mind XD) and then walked around town for a while, saw the parade. It was really cool. I'd never seen a marching band before. We left when the firetrucks started coming in a blowing their horns. I don't like that.
We went to a friend's house that night too and had a BBQ. It was lots of fun. We each had our own awesome cool animal plate. If I can get the pictures from Luca I'll post them. They're awesome. Once again, DDR. We left kind of early though because some stupids came over and started drinking. We didn't see much of the fireworks either. That's too bad....
7.05.04 The rain falls - Empty Hands
Sticks and Mon came up and them, Lord Conti and I walked to the lake to draw. We specifically had set aside this day for drawing. It was awful. I think Lord Conti intimidates me with his drawing. He can show me things and teach me, but I can't do it when he's around. Especially this time. I haven't been able to draw for two weeks. He was sitting right there. Right next to me. Watching. Trying to make me understand. I couldn't do it. I just sat there with tears in my eyes. Watching the goofy little boys throw popcorn in the lake, starring at the sidewalk. I just couldn't do it.
It seemed like forever, but we finally went back and later that night we went to the comic book store. It was a really cool store but I'm not that interested in comic books. Not the old ones anyway. I saw some comic issues of Ah! My Goddess but I didn't want to start a comic book series when I wouldn't ever return there anyway. They were back issues and expensive anyway. Saw some cool action figures and a graphic novel called "Shadow Star" It looks really good. It was #4 though so I didn't buy it. I'm looking into the series though. Need to work first.
Made pizza and bread sticks when we got back. Jorge came over and we played DDR....again!
7.06.04 Bright Days - The Mysteries
Did nothing but play Final Fantasy X all day with Luca spectating and trying to strategize and figure things out. That was fun though!!
7.07.04 Inner Warmth - Walking Elegance
Went shopping! That was fun stuff! Luca and Eri got me all dress up mostly all day and I even got some stupid cool pants! YAY! I got a coolie fan too. I should take pictures and post 'em. Yes, we played DDR in the arcade too. Heh heh. Sticks, Mon, and Lord Conti left early so we could run around more. Whee. On the way back we stopped and grabbed flowers off the side of the road. We're so bad. Sweet Peas they were. Sweet Peas.....
7.08.04 As it pours - Once Again
Another day of nothing but FFX and cooking at times. :]
7.09.04 The Lightened - Broken Endings
We went back to the mall that day because my mom and sister came up to bring me home. I got really depressed half through the day. I love my family, but I loved my "other" family too. I didn't want to leave. I didn't want to leave my friends behind. I wanted to stay with them forever. I want to go back. I want to live again. I miss them so much and I've only just gotten home. I'll see them next weekend...but....
Now that I'm home, I'm depressed again. Something is wrong with my mom. Midlife crisis or something. It pushed me down. I've seemed okay all day but I know that I'm not. It's not real. I've lost my smile. Home isn't happy anymore, and I don't know why... Home used to be safe. Now I feel alone.
=Lee
Current Music - A Christian Radio
Current Eats - hashbrown!
Current mood - depressed?
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