5.16.2004
It's been a while since I last cried. It's about time I got some of that salt out of my eyes. I wish I would hurry up and get it over with though. It hurts my throat. My nose gets all gross too. How annoying. Crying is annoying. Death upon tears!
Why am I crying? Well, this is me trying to think up excuses...
I'm stressed
I'm tired
I feel neglected
There, those are my reasons. Now, would someone give me a hug and tell me to get over it?!
Went to see Ella Enchanted today. Oh, man...It was so.....I mean, INSANELY.....disappointing.
The theater stopped playing it after it ran for only two weeks because no one was showing up to watch it. I'd been pushing people to take me there before it was out of theaters...
Three years. I waited three years to go there and have them tell me it wasn't playing. Maybe that's why I'm crying. I know I'll just have to buy the movie sooner or later anyway. But it's not the same. I'll probably hate the movie anyway. It looks really bad from the previews. Well, there's another thing to add to my...."This is a poo list" list.
I know I'm being an idiot, some sometimes you just have to be an idiot. I can come back at myself with all these words saying, "You'll get over it. It's not the end of the world. That is so selfish. Stop being so immature and grow up." I know all those things. But at the moment, I don't care. Tomorrow I'll be perfectly fine(hopefully) and I'll smile some time throughout the day. I'll think, "How could I be so stupid?" but I won't understand.
"What's wrong?"
"...I don't know"
"Oh, okay, good-bye"
Thank you for caring. And I know you do. But....
I think I'm going to stay up late tonight. I'll find something to do. Hopefully. Like....eat....or draw. Or eat and draw. I can't sleep when I'm like this anyway. That's probably why I could sleep for those months. I don't know.
Am I spelling probably right? Probabbly. Probablly. Probabley. Yeah, I think I was spelling it right before. Yay for me....
I played DDR Extreme today. I wasted money on it too. The first time I played I chose the wrong option and it was defiantly not the easy option. Didn't get through 10 seconds of it before the "FAILED" came up. So we tried it again. That happened the last time too. That was a bummer. Ending it off with a bad one. I want that game a lot. Someone donate? Please?
Yeah, I'm definitely stalling. I don't want to go to my room. It will make me depressed.
Watched Peter Pan today. That was such a good movie. Though the TV we watched it on was really close to death and all the people's faces were green. It made their eyes look so pretty though. The boy that played Peter Pan was so cute. I wanted to adopt him and take him home with me. The ending was sad though. I don't see how they could make it good though. His home was in Neverland. Wendy's home was with her parents. They had to be apart. They were supposed to be together...and live happily ever after. What's a romantic story without the guy and the girl being together? He lied to her too. He said he would return to her and visit. But he never did. I wonder if he died because of sorrow?
I met Luffmado's puppy today. He's the cutest bugger. He's very tiny and won't be much bigger when he's a grown doggie. What a lovely thing. Too bad he has to piddle every ten or twenty minutes. He's must be a handful to take care of. Such a sweetheart though. Such a doll....he's so cute when he's asleep ^^
Which reminds me...Davy won't be at camp this year. I'm going to miss him lots. None of the original staff with be there because of work and college. I won't be there the first week because I'm going to be away. Krumpy and Srah will be at college. I dunno if Chef will be there. We didn't really bond much anyway last year so I don't know if it really matters much to me. I hope that lady doesn't try to take my place in canteen(the staff sells candy and drinks to the youth). Let us list the reasons....
She's not a teenager! Canteen is the teen job! It always has been and I'm not going to let that lady change it!!! AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGG FEAR MEEEEEEEEE
She doesn't know how the system works. It takes a lot to train a person. Especially someone like her.
It's very fast pace! I don't think she could handle it, let along "HELP"
There's not that much room in there. You need to have at least three people. Two for cards, AT LEAST one for running around and grabbing stuff(VERY TOUGH AND FAST PACE JOB). I'm sorry but, there's not enough room for you lass!
Besides.....she's bossy and annoying.
I know I'm being rude and mean. Boy, does it feel good to dump it. Sometimes you just gotta do it. Not all the time though. That'd be bad.
I'll hopefully catch the second week and get to retake my position. It won't really be all that fun without Davy or Srah. But it's better than nothing. I really hope I can make it....
Well, I changed the layout to my webpage. I think it looks much nicer now. Go educate yourself. I put up the "Meet Lee" page too so you can go there and find out some stuff about me. Not stalking though. I don't like that. I wouldn't be happy if you tried that. That would be mean.
Speaking of "mean". When we were at the theaters we though about seeing "Mean Girls". I want to eventually see it because it really depicts life at school well, but I think it would be a really crude movie and I wouldn't want to watch it with other people.
I'm strange. I know. I get picky about how I watch movies. So eat me.
Oh yeah, food. I'm going to go grab some. Potty too. That outta be fun.
Gotta have my Pops...
Why do they have so many Corn Flakes boxes in those 30 pack cereal assortment things? Does anyone even like Corn Flakes anymore? Come on! Keep up with the times! We've movied onto bigger and better things like...Lucky Charms and Cheerios! Raisin Bran! Rice Crispies! Shredded Wheat! SUGAR COATED EVEN! Frosted Flakes are better then...CORN Flakes. Sheesh.
I'm not too happy about how these Pops came out. All crushed and powdery-like. Like the bottom of the box. That's gross.
I miss my mommy. I want her to come walking down the stairs and talk to me. I always hoped that when I was a child and I would sit outside her room praying, "Lord, please tell her I need her and make her come out to me". Obviously the Lord had other plans. Sometimes I wish He would just go along with the little things I wanted though. I want my mommy. Is that so much to ask?
No offense to anyone, but I think Rocky Road anything tastes yucky.
I just had the craving to go skiing. Maybe it'll snow....
Oh yeah, it's the middle of May.
I hope school picks up and heads out soon. I'm sick of it. I want these stupid tests to hurry up and get over with. Bah, I don't even want to write about it.
So, I guess I am done rambling on about nothing. I have nothing better to do("There's always something better to do. Draw!" I can't draw like this) but I can't think of anything else to talk about either. I suppose I could try to sleep, but I know I couldn't. I'll start thinking again and get myself all worked up and won't be able to sleep OR type. Maybe I'll find something to do while I .... wait. I don't know what I'm waiting for though. Maybe I'm waiting to pass out. Maybe I'm waiting for dawn. Maybe I'm waiting for the end of the earth. Crap, I hope the world doesn't end tomorrow. I'd hate for the world to end when I'm in a bad mood. Or when I just learned how to play DDR. That'd stink.
peices. and fishk
=Lee
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