8.06.2004
I actually want to be sewing and crouqeting but sewing is hurting my brain right now because I really have to think this pattern through and I don' t know how to start another row with crouqeting. So sad.
I am kinda lonely right now, but I don't want to talk to anyone. I'm being a drug again. I was so happy today. It was a permenent smile most of the day. Right up until my mom said we were spending 3 days in a car rather than 2. Not fun. I hate being cramped up in a car. Then I just got quiet and lonely. I didn't want Mom to go to bed because I wanted her somewhere around me. I know she'll still be hanging around in the morning but I have to do a lot of work again tomorrow and work makes me grouchy(as you may have noticed).
I feel really bad about venting like that the other day. I feel like a sticky moron for freaking out over stupidness. Bah.
I want to be writing right now. I should have picked up a notebook today. I really want to write a story. That doesn't happen often. I just need more ambition. I want to continue the story titled "I ran" (name is only temporary, until I finish the book and come up with something spoon-like) only I want to change the main character to a girl. I guess that would be better because I can actually directly relate that way. I need to find it and type up some things. My problem is I always get stuck and I have a hard time connecting everything together.
I'm kind of sick of poo-ey people now and I wish I could just move on with life without having to worry about everyone. Why do you have to have feelings I can hurt?
Anyway....
I'm not doing much at all right now. There are so many things I want to do but I don't have any ambition. Maybe I'll get a guestbook for my site. Yeah, run fun.
-Lee
current music - Pillar - Bring me down
current eats - just finished a sammich
current feelings - too tired for those
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.::. Lisa .::. 10:35 PM
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