12.11.2004
I don't want to sound dramatic but everything that I will say is true. It really does feel like my life is fading away piece by piece. I didn't think I was depressed or stressed before. I was wrong. I've never been so wrong. This is possibly the hardest year I have ever had.For one thing. I want all of my files back. My music. My videos. My freakin photos. For once I had finally gotten the perfect picture of a flower. I'm a retard and kept putting off uploading it. All of my references are gone. Hiroto's pictures are gone. These are things I could never dream of retreiving. That too. I miss Sandy. I went outside today and had to knock on the wall, pretending it was her over-excited tail hitting the wall ready to devour the endless plains of snow.
Three. Or was it four? That's how many times I have sobbed today. Let's make it clear; the difference between crying and sobbing. My definitions.
Crying - silent tears rolling down the creeks
Sobbing - crouching down into a fetal position on the floor, lips quivering, moaning, tears attacking the eyes.
There. That was my relief.
Emily, I want to call you tomorrow. We shall connive together.
-Lee
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.::. Lisa .::. 10:05 PM
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i can't sing in, yah. i miss talking to you. =( i feel bad im not on much anymore, theres just so much going on now. i still want to be here for you, though...please, if you ever need to vent or ramble or anything - i'll always listen, you can email [buytheregular@gmail.com] anytime, i may not always have advice or anyhting but ill always listen and keep you in my prayers. praying for you, and i really hope things get better. God Bless.
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2:03 PM
lise, i just emailed you before i even read this. i've been thinking of you lately. i was wondering if you were fine and whatnot. i wasn't home sunday, but i will call you tomarrow night (hopefully) finals are this week and i am stupid stressed about it all. but as soon as finals are over...... bliss.
i miss you lisa. i started a ton of letters to you the past few weeks. none are finished but i think i may rip them all out of my notebooks and send them your way anyway.
i'm sorry about you not feeling well (physically and emotionally), i really wish i could be there for you more. ew, distance is gross.
i hope you feel better lise. <3emily
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